Thursday, 24 September 2015

Suburb Cleopatra on the Search for Happiness

cleopatra look, peacock necklace, blogger style
Cleopatra, I adore you: Powerful, beautiful and wise.
miu miu glitter sunnies, pink hair, peacock necklace
Follow this amazing woman: I have the haircut and the jewellery. Now I just need a palace.
maxi shirt look, cleopatra style, monki maxi shirt
I am sure Cleopatra would go pink as well nowadays.
peacock necklace, cleopatra look, statement collar
Kissed by the sun, kissed by luck?
fluffy bag, anna dello russo bangle, crocodile bangle
A queen needs feathers (best if they come in the shape of a lovely bag).
monki shirt dress, blogger street style, pink hair
You might be blinded by the sun, I am blinded by thinking of Egyptian gold.
anna dello russo, crocodile bangle, bracelet
Even the crocodiles are subjected to the mighty woman from the Nile, I bet.
melissa shoes, jelly shoes, pink heels
The Egyptians used to have pictures of their enemies on their soles. I don't but rather wear my pretty Melissa shoes.
peacock necklace, miu miu sunglasses, cleopatra look
Oh girl, the world will look different today, so don't you worry!
cleopatra look, pink bob, shirt dress
Why does my body keep me from flying? I don't know.


Warning, this is no happy post. It was Fashion Week in London and Sara was not there, what a tragedy! I caught myself haunting the Instagram accounts of all the luckier people and got depressed and jealous. Then I was ashamed of my nasty feelings, just wanted to hide in my pyjamas and eat a whole bar of chocolate.

Forget about the modern world where it doesn't matter where you are because of the internet. It's just nonsense and nearly impossible to be part of the world I feel I belong to while being far away. I feel like a cheated lover when I see my favourite brands collaborate with others while my mailbox is empty. Oh wait, there are invitation emails coming in. Ah yes, Oktoberfest, the release of the ugliest shoes I have ever seen (maybe made for attending a desert expedition) and parties with (so-called) Swiss celebrities I never heard of before. Delete messages. Ok, empty mailbox again. Where are the good news? Cinderella is waiting for an invitation to the ball!

I am starting to doubt everything. What am I doing here? Am I not good enough? I take unlikes personal and I'm very self-critical. People tell me that I've come far with my blog, I just see competitors miles ahead of me. I've always been the girl that wanted more and there are times when it's almost eating me up.

As a teenager, I often felt in the wrong body and saw it as a cage that limited me. I questioned everything and didn't just take things as they were. Although those emotions calmed down a little bit during the years, I still don't take things for granted. What keeps me from flying? Am I not likeable enough, too old, too fat, not pretty enough, not intelligent, funny, happy, cute, determined, whatever enough? Do I overestimate myself? Why am I not happy to be just one in a million of unremarkable people? A lot of questions and no answers, I feel like sleeping.

Tomorrow I want to find back to optimism and start to believe that the world will be mine one day, I'll go upright and proud, just like Cleopatra.

My Outfit:
Shirt Dress & Shirt: Monki, Skirt: Monki, Shoes: Melissa (old),
Bag: River Island (still available in other colour here), Sunglasses: Miu Miu,
Bangle: Anna Dello Russo For H&M (old), Necklace: Found at Spitalfields Market

13 comments :

  1. That crocodile bracelet is awesome!

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  2. you look awesome! love every piece of your outfit. Esp your hair and kimono!

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  3. lovee your outfit from head to toe! amazing!

    http://sonya-thaniya.blogspot.com/

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  4. You are special and unique and you should never doubt yourself. I too take so many things personal like the mean comments I get or the unlikes that happen. Being different can really be hard and I know not everyone can like it. There are many days where I thought I should give up. Please know that you are fabulous and I adore you as well as many other people do!

    BTW your outfit is amazing and how perfect is that necklace.

    Rebecca
    http://www.winnipegstyle.ca/Blog/default.cfm

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    1. Let's never give up girl, both of us! If you ever feel like giving up, always write me and I'll tell you to not doubt yourself, just like you did now. Sending you a lot of love, xxx

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  5. Oh Sara! I appreciate your realness but it makes me so sad that you feel that way! Whilst i cannot give you the reasons why you aren't further ahead because i do not understand why i will tell you this. You are pretty enough, smart enough, kind enough, funny enough and good enough! You are beautiful and unique and talented and so much more! You have been one of my favourite bloggers of all time for so long now because of how good you are at it and how lovely you come across as a person! Oh and your fabulous style of course! I just want you to know that i admire and appreciate you and you inspire me with every post! Your time will come I'm sure of it because good things happen to good people in the end and hard work and talent always prevail! Your journey just isn't over yet! Xxx

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    1. Dear Jessica, thank you so very much for your words. This is probable the loveliest thing somebody ever told me. I am very lucky you found my blog. After reading your comment I think even if you were my only reader in the world, it would be more than worth to keep on going with this blog. I have a folder on my computer where I keep images and things that make me smile and I took a screenshot of your comment to go in there, darling girl. You made my day! xxx

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  6. Oh Sara! I appreciate your realness but it makes me so sad that you feel that way! Whilst i cannot give you the reasons why you aren't further ahead because i do not understand why i will tell you this. You are pretty enough, smart enough, kind enough, funny enough and good enough! You are beautiful and unique and talented and so much more! You have been one of my favourite bloggers of all time for so long now because of how good you are at it and how lovely you come across as a person! Oh and your fabulous style of course! I just want you to know that i admire and appreciate you and you inspire me with every post! Your time will come I'm sure of it because good things happen to good people in the end and hard work and talent always prevail! Your journey just isn't over yet! Xxx

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  7. Oh Sara! I appreciate your realness but it makes me so sad that you feel that way! Whilst i cannot give you the reasons why you aren't further ahead because i do not understand why i will tell you this. You are pretty enough, smart enough, kind enough, funny enough and good enough! You are beautiful and unique and talented and so much more! You have been one of my favourite bloggers of all time for so long now because of how good you are at it and how lovely you come across as a person! Oh and your fabulous style of course! I just want you to know that i admire and appreciate you and you inspire me with every post! Your time will come I'm sure of it because good things happen to good people in the end and hard work and talent always prevail! Your journey just isn't over yet! Xxx

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  8. One must never doubt themselves. We all have the most precious and unique magic inside of ourselves and when we doubt or worry, we cheat ourselves out of that magic. We are in a race with no one but ourselves. As long as we are better than we were the day before, we are winning. Likes and numbers don't matter, they are so superficial and what do we get from them?? Nothing really, no prizes, no money, no real happiness. If we put our happiness in shallow things, we will for sure always find ourselves lacking. But, put our energies in creating, laughing, having fun, learning and connecting with those that put themselves out there to be connected with, that is what matters most. I used to care too much, worry about comments or likes, but once I forgot about all that and just had fun and created, I enjoyed it more and honestly people started coming to me out of nowhere. You do an amazing job on your blog and outfits, never doubt that. You are building solid foundations based on being true to who you are. Most other 'famous' bloggers are based on what is trendy and 'in' and that is fading, and not real. But, the ones who do with passion from the inside are the ones that will be still here in the long run. You have fabulous style, believe in yourself and be your biggest champion because that is all you need, others who support and champion you are a bonus like icing on the cake. But, it must always begin and end with how you feel. Sorry, I've not been around much to comment, a dear family member passed away and I have been unwell with a terrible cold that has taken a liking to me too much. But, I have always been reading when I can :) xx

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  9. Oh and P.S. I really love this outfit, gorgeous x

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